About a month ago my husband and I were up at an annual family trip to Powderhorn ski/snowboarding Mountain Resort. I went up with a heavy heart. I was very excited to see my husbands side of the family but I knew that a personal trial was going to make it hard. I had never been snow boarding before and I was really nervous. My husband had so much patience with me. There was one time I caught my front edge and went down hard. I didn’t even have control the tears just started streaming down my face. I knew that I either had to get up or I was going to be stuck there. (My husband forgot to mention the fact that people can actually help you down them mountain) My internal reaction was to get up immediately instead of wasting my time sitting there. Instead, I processed my feelings got up and proceeded down the mountain.
The reason I tell you this story is because it is similar to a personal trial that I have been going through for the past eight months. There have been many times that I have fallen down and I have gotten back up but instead of processing the feelings I would keep them all inside because expressing them would be weak. A couple of days into the trip I was feeling very lost and very discouraged. I literally hid in the closet got down on my knees and prayed. Through tears I asked my Heavenly Father to just give me peace.
I joined my husband and part of his family in the kitchen of the condo. One thing led to another and we just spilled out all of the things that we had been going through and how hard it was. Confiding in them. Trusting them with something that we had kept in for so long. Unbeknown to me they had been through something similar. They were able to give us hope, answer questions, and help us process our feelings. When we fall down it is easier to get up and keep going. Many times we forget to process what we are going through before we move on. It is easier to hold in all of the nasty feelings we have instead of burdening someone else with our emotions. Although, if I have learned one thing from the experience processing and feeling your emotions is so important and most importantly God does hear you.